Hello! On to our next strain, Luckleberries #59.
Luckleberries #59 is a crossbreed of Louis XIII and Huckleberry Kush, meaning its a Hybrid strain (mix of a Sativa and an Indica strain), but it's Indica dominant. It was comprised of 0.47% THC, 25.43% THCA, 0% CBD, and 0% CBDA. Although there is reportedly 0% of CBD in this strain, it is reported to help with pain relief, relaxation, and is an "anti-spasmodic" strain, meaning it helps with tremors/shaky hands.
There isn't an abundance of information about this strain, other than reviews from other stoners. So, I can't confirm any information, but I can recommend!
I smoked it out of my 1 percolator bong with a MouthPeace filter. Each nug has a mild earthy scent and a nice frosty coat. I found that this strain doesn't grind as easily as some other strains, but that might be due to the harvest or my grinder. I was smoking this strain while hanging out with my bestfriend, via Zoom of course. For this and future stories involving her, we'll call her Colleen as to keep up with the anonymity. Colleen doesn't smoke or use marijuana much, only occasionally.
I was interested in this strain because of the reported pain-relieving qualities. I identify as a cisgender woman, which means CRAMPS! I have a diagnosis of endometriosis and without going into the anatomy/physiology of it, let's just chalk it up to painful cramps. I've tried this strain while experiencing cramps, and it helps quite a bit, it doesn't completely erase the feeling, but it makes it less intense. So for all my friends who know the joys of having a uterus, I highly recommend this strain when feeling particularly bloated. It's a nice high; I didn't find it very intense, it's a nice smooth incline, peak, and decline. Smoking it, I always recommend a bong because it's a smooth inhale. This strain doesn't overwhelm the user with any brain fog or headaches.
And all I can say is, fabulous! However, with this strain, that I recently discovered is that if you take more than a 4 puffs, you'll hit a peak that completely inhibits your ability to play at your best. What I mean is that your muscles relax and your eyes droop with a pink tint to them.
In stoner words, you look and feel high as fuck. Great strain for sleep help though! So for this strain, take it easy and don't over do it if you want that smooth experience, but if you want to feel relaxed, high, and collected, take a few puffs in a row and see how you do.
Luckleberries #59 lives up to the reported pain relieving qualities and relaxation. It allows you to remain present mentally with the light elevation that we all enjoy, which is really nice considering this is an Indica dominant Hybrid. I can't report any overwhelming effects, just a mild pleasant experience, a perfect strain for a chill night with friends, watching a movie, reading a book, or taking a walk outside.
A solid choice for anyone somewhat new to the marijuana world as it provides the steady high that stoners appreciate but it also allows the user to remain cognizant of the experience, which is something I think new users would appreciate. I would also recommend this strain to anyone who experiences cramps or mild/moderate chronic pain (i.e. athletes, elderly, arthritis pain, etc.), of course while also consulting with your medical providers if you're using marijuana for medicinal reasons and not just for kicks.
Now, back to Colleen; we were catching up and while she was telling me all the details of what her kiddos were up to this week, she's an elementary school teacher, her younger sister, who we'll call Maya, texted her. Maya was in a relationship with a man she met in her first couple years of college, they lived together and it seemed pretty serious, I even met him a few times.
Well, last Spring, they went their separate ways, which took all of us, especially Maya, by surprise. They lived together and they seemed really close. Like anyone reeling with a surprise life-changer, there are bound to be some hiccups in the healing process, especially if the separate paths occasionally meet-up now and again.
Maya has been having an unexpected difficult time coping with the breakup despite breakups not having a standard healing timeframe. Nonetheless, she needed some support. And even though I was high from this strain, I could still be there to support her through it.
We've all had break ups in the past, and if you haven't, then I can either say lucky you or well that's an experience you have to go through to understand it to its fullest, at least in my experience. I've had my share of breakups, but only one has managed to break my heart into pieces. I was involved with this person through my junior and senior year of college. He was one of my good friends at the time and we had feelings for each other. We met at our local church and hit it off. He wasn't someone that I expected to date or have feelings for at the beginning, but sometimes you can't help how you feel.
Anyway, he was the first person I "fell in love with," since I questioned whether or not I truly loved other romantic partners in the past. My previous relationships before weren't very long or emotionally deep; my longest relationship being only 4-5 months prior to this. We were together for a year and some change, my longest relationship, and he was the first person I had sex with, so there was some emotional depth to our relationship too. Needless to say, my immature self thought that he was my person and we would end up together forever.
I remember having emotional turbulence FREQUENTLY throughout the entirety of our relationship. I was struggling with depression, anxiety, and existential growing pains (symptoms of being human) and felt like he couldn't support me. Looking back, I don't think he could've, I needed to learn to support myself as well.
During the relationship, I can see how I was overbearing and expected things from him that he just couldn't give me. I expected him to be "in" our relationship and committed 100%; I didn't think it was a big ask because I was in it 100%, I was committed to him, but he told me that he could only give 75% effort for this. Even though this was in the middle of our relationship when I learned this about his perception of our relationship, we stayed together.
It was a week or so after his 21st birthday that he broke up with me. He had a female friend, who depended on him for emotional support, far too often for me to be comfortable with it. I brought it up several times as something that made me uncomfortable and insecure, thinking that being honest would help him understand my and maybe make some boundaries with her. However, that wasn't the case, without going too far into the details, he decided we shouldn't be together anymore.
I remember feeling my heart break, it's cliché, but my chest hurt and I felt my heart shatter inside me; I actually gripped my chest when it happened it hurt so much. Afterwards I went back home, where I lived with Colleen and just broke down with her and my other friend, who we'll call Jessie. They were my rocks throughout the whole experience. Them and my dad. My dad didn't really like my previous partner(s) and repeatedly called/calls him "Dumb Ass" whenever he's brought up in conversation. Unlike my mom, Colleen, and Jessie, although extremely helpful they were, my dad knew that talking about it sometimes doesn't help, but actions might help me move on. He suggested we get Thai food the first time I came home after the breakup because I couldn't eat it when I was with my previous partner due to his severe peanut allergy. My dad doesn't even like Thai food. Him and I really strengthened our relationship as father and daughter as well after my previous relationship.
After that, I realized I had changed my interests and who I was so I could "convince" my previous partner to enjoy my company. I felt like Ann Perkins from Parks and Recreation; I needed to be alone. As an only child, I hated being alone; boring, monotonous alone time fucking sucked. I needed to be alone with myself and learn what I liked and who I was growing into, not who I could/should be. A lot of movies and real people use the trope, "who you want to be," but I wanted to just go along for the ride with myself, not forcing anything from myself like I had been before.
One aspect of myself that needed some attention was my music taste. I grew up listening to what my parents liked, '80s rock, classic but it gets old over time. When I was with my previous partner, I listened to solely Pop Punk, drowning myself in Blink 182 and Neck Deep. Although there's a time and a place for that, that gets old after a while too. And to be honest, I don't even like Blink 182! Whether I genuinely don't enjoy their sound, or they have forever been tainted by my memory of my previous partner, I will never know.
For about 4 months after I graduated and he broke up with me, I learned so much about myself, my music taste, my clothing choices, my humor, so much of myself came back to life after being stifled by, none other than, MYSELF! I used to blame my previous partner for changing me, but even though he was toxic and we weren't a good match, I allowed myself to get in my own way. I needed to "date myself," but in reality, I just needed to reconnect with myself, no expectations needed.
I recounted a few things I learned from my previous relationship to Maya, all while flying steady on Luckleberries #59, giving advice where I could and just listening to her. Maya is a very strong, intelligent, caring, beautiful woman and I felt for her, especially since this was such a surprise. I also advised that she try "tapering off" on those butterfly feelings when you're in a relationship with someone. Biologically, a breakup (i.e. friend or romantic partner) causes a withdrawal of dopamine, there's something missing after you get used to having it regularly. I felt this way and it sounded like Maya did too. What helped me was reading those cheesy young adult romance books, gradually tapering off feeling those butterfly feelings, like a nicotine patch but for romance and love. Although this worked for me, I had to also remember not to adopt any expectations on romantic relationships from these stories; I couldn't over invest.
This seemed to help Maya get a direction on how to help her heartbreak feelings and I'm glad I could support her and help her feel a little less stuck. After all, 4 months after my heart was completely shattered, I met a man at a wedding who made me feel happy while being myself. I'm living with him now and we have an adorably opinionated cat. I'm glad my heart was shattered because I have grown so much with my current partner ("SO") and I wouldn't trade our relationship for anything. I hope the same for Maya, she deserves to love and be loved in return. It sucks that we can't feel that all the time, but it feels that much better when you finally feel it.
For those who are struggling with heartbreak or loneliness, especially during a pandemic, hang in there, call your friends, reconnect with family, call crisis lines and try talking with a counselor. Growing pains hurt like a motherfucker, but maybe with some Luckleberries #59 and some therapy, we can deal with the pain and come out the other side.
-IWWSS
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